Killa

this week has been a killa! from being on call last weekend (which seems like yesterday) and this past tuesday, and staying late at work EVERY night this week, i am about to go insane. i guess i have to say business is good and i can't complain about that, i just wish it didn't make me so tired. i have not ran a single day this week. maybe this weekend i will have a chance. on monday (which is my normal day off, so i really don't get a day off next week) i will start the slow down process which is only 3 miles 4 days a week. then i have to be on call next weekend and i have to work that monday. if i can only make it until that wednesday! on that wednesday i fly into montana not to return for 14 DAYS! if i do not come back it will not because because i got killed by a bear or mountain lion, but because i couldn't come back to work after being out there, so don't bother looking for me!

i guess i have not been very inspirational this week, i have let work overtake my running schedule. i think one reason i have allowed this to happen is because i do not want to be extremely worn out when i go on my trip and because i think even if i miss a week i can still complete the schedule for the marathon. also, i have not had anyone pushing me, no one is commenting on my post anymore, i have lost all interested people. oh well, i will keep writing, at least i still read it :)

here is my quote for the day: if you get off track or off schedule, get back on as soon as you can and keep trudging. don't let a little stop in action make you stop completely. that is what quitters do, they are always looking for an out, a reason to follow the easier path. don't be a loser. but, even if you are on the right track, you will still get run over if you just sit there. so get back on track and keep moving, the best you can. i told someone today, when they asked about my montana trip, "this is not a vacation, i am not going out there to enjoy the sites, i am going out there to work my but off and to shoot an elk. i don't want to stay in a hotel, i don't need a cozy place to sleep. i am going out there to do what 95% of elk hunters choose not to do (work extremely hard), to be able to do something 80% of elk hunters can't do (kill an elk by myself). if i do not kill an elk this trip i will not be upset. if i killed an elk on my first solo do-it-yourself elk hunt i would be upset, because that would make me think that elk were not as much competition as i had hoped. the reward is working hard and sticking with them for 10-12 days." i wish i was out there right now sleeping under the stars!